The Honeymoon is Over

We are now in the midst of week 6 of our school year and the honeymoon stage is over for everyone.

Sleep deprivation is catching up with the students

it's getting harder for them to follow the rules

 flu season is upon us

homesickness is seeping in 

and school work is getting harder. 

This makes my job a little more challenging at times,  but I wouldn't trade it for the world. 

This year God has been teaching me what it means to find my satisfaction, my all, my everything in Him. This has been a lesson in relationships for sure. I've been learning that physically and emotionally, but lately He has been showing me that He is my all in ministry. Yes, I know that may sound elementary and obvious. God should be our everything in ministry. But I have found that that is easier said than done. I am discipling eight girls at the moment, eight precious, fun, beautiful, wickedly sinful girls. More than anything, my desire is heart change for my eight, but also for all the students on campus. I want them to want to Christ more than anything else. I want them to forgive their past and trust God for their future. And I am doing everything I can to bring them to a place where they are captivated with Christ.

Aye, there's the rub.

I am doing.

I 

am

DOING.

I spend more time in my day doing, telling, teaching, talking, walking, reading, pointing, and crying than I do praying. Man, God has been drilling this into my heart these past couple days! Why am I not committing my girls to God in prayer. Why don't I bring them boldly, broken and seeking, before the Throne of Grace and beg God for their heart change? I do, do, do when what I should be DOING is PRAYING. I fail when I minister to these girls in my own strength, no matter how good my intentions are. All day I tell them about the power God has to change their lives and satisfy them completely and yet I, hypocritically, fail to tap into that power through prayer. 

Let us then approach God's throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.   Hebrews 4:16